a couple of you seemed quite curious about what my "big" decisions were that made such a change for this year. the truth is they are not big decisions at all. they are two very small decisions (one that was hardly a decision... just fate really) that made a very big change for me this year.
first decision: i'm not working. not really. i am still a substitute at the montessori, but more of an emergency substitute. i won't be in there very often. just a little here and there.
second "decision"/fate: all of my kids will be going to the same school this year. the only reason this can even be considered a decision at all is because we were considering switching maiko to another school for 6-8th grade. but he decided to stay at elementary for 6th and then home school for 7th and 8th, then go to high school. which could still change, but right now is what we are planning for.
as you can imagine, these two things combined mean i get a lot more time to myself.
my goals for this next year are simple:
i want to accomplish some of the projects i have been planning over the last few years.
(notice i say "some of"... there are quite a lot, and i am trying to be realistic.)
i want to improve my health and well being with regular exercise and meditation.
and i want to spend time on my own personal development.
Personal development covers activities that improve awareness and identity, develop talents and potential, build human capital and facilitate employability, enhance quality of life and contribute to the realization of dreams and aspirations.
so basically, my goals are to catch up and enjoy life, and i am going to try to keep it that simple.
a distant forest fire fills the air with smoke and creates a brilliant sunset.
i was not able to capture it accurately.
the sky (and water reflecting it) were gray and peach and the sun was a big round brilliant red.
it was so beautiful.
we are watching our big white friend from down the road again. ezra the great pyrenees. we will be watching him for a couple months this time and he is truly becoming one of the family. parting will not be so easy, but we will cross that bridge when we come to it. who knows, it has only been a few weeks... it may be easier than i think.
this summer has flown by in such a flurry i feel that it left me a bit dizzy and breathless, but i do honestly feel that i have been completely present in it. i knew this summer would be a wild one, so i took a deep breath and embraced it for all that it was, and truly enjoyed the ride (well, most of it... four kids at home all summer is certainly not all sunshine and rainbows).
in a couple of weeks things will be changing quite dramatically around here.
we have made some decisions that will make this next few seasons quite peaceful and healing for me, and i do believe i am ready for it.