as it comes to an end...

Everyone has been talking about it... that feeling of fall creeping in. I didn't see it at first, but i'm starting to notice it now. What i have really been seeing though is more the end of summer than the beginning of fall... do you know what i mean? Dry golden grasses, apples full and turning red in the sun, gardens ripe and ready to harvest. I have such mixed feelings about the end of this season. I suppose the way i feel depends on how my day has gone. On those really hectic days i daydream about school starting and actually having quiet mornings to myself again. Then there are days like today where we all work together quite well, really enjoying each other's company, and the thought of them being gone all day just makes me sad. I also haven't accomplished even a quarter of the things i wanted to this summer. It just flew by so fast. I think i will still have time for many of those things once school starts, if the weather holds. One thing i won't have more time for is quality fun time with the kids. I meant to play with them more. It's crazy how easily my adult life gets in the way of that simple little task. I always think i will have time for it later, but some day soon the opportunity will completely disappear... at least for the older ones. I do have a small ray of hope in that department though. We are not signed up for any extracurricular activities this season... sigh.... and it feels so good. Then since i will have so much time to myself during the day, i have a goal to get all of my important things done early so that i can just focus on being mom when they get home (easier said than done... i made the same goal last year). I think this will be a good year for this goal. With maiko and layla gone for so long and even eislee gone for a couple hours, and also, our weekends will no longer be broken up with soccer games... i smile when i think of all the possibilities that will bring. We will see how it works out. My goals usually don't work out the way that i plan them. But at least when we are striving for the best... we get somewhere.